Drowning in a new season

New seasons are exciting and full of potential and promise. They mark times in our lives when we see God growing us in tangible ways. Some of us walk into these seasons with gladness. Others of us walk into these new places hesitatingly. Personally, I get excited about new seasons and obvious periods of my life when God is moving in a special way. Who wouldn't?

However, there is a part of me that once I'm in this glorious season, I fear that I will immediately begin to sink. Strange. Who walks into a brand new season of growth, strength and power only to be afraid of sinking and failing?

Not only do I fear it, but I actually do tend to sink in new seasons. Maybe you don't. But maybe you do. Maybe you can hide it from everyone else how you may in fact be drowning in this new and beautiful season you're in.

Maybe you just got married to the love of your life and you're struggling with discouragement and insecurity as a wife. Or you just had a baby and you are overcome with anxiety and worry about being a new mother. It could be that you just started a new job, one that you are well qualified for, but the pressure is getting to be too much. So much so, that you begin to sink in your performance. Or maybe, you just graduated from college and the idea of living on your own and supporting yourself is very scary, so you don't branch out into the unknown, you go back to familiar living. You may have even made some new, healthy friends recently, but you feel your past disappointments with people creeping up. You get scared and start to isolate yourself. The list goes on and on. If we can all be honest, we can relate in one way or another. 

So, what do we do? How do we break the vicious cycle of screwing up the new and beautiful things God is giving us as His daughters?

But before I get into answering that, I want to talk about a man who the moment he started walking into a new thing, he sank. Literally.

So He said, ‘Come.’ And when Peter had come down out of the boat, he walked on the water to go to Jesus. But when he saw that the wind was boisterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink he cried out, saying, ‘Lord, save me!’
— Matthew 14:29-30 NKJV

Back to the question I posed, what do we do? How do we break the cycle of sinking?

1. Cry out to Jesus that we need saving. I will be completely honest with you, I don't do this immediately. I try to save myself. I'm like, "I'm smart enough to figure this out, I got this," so I sinfully make a savior out of myself. That can't be, because if I could save myself, I wouldn't need Jesus. And us not needing Jesus, is a lie from satan himself. We all have to get out of the idea that we don't need God. We do, we desperately do. I love that the moment Peter started to drown, he immediately called out to the One he knew would save Him, Jesus. He didn't try to swim or tread water, He cried out and trusted that the Lord would rescue him, and He did.

2. Walk into the new season unafraid of what's happening around you. Fear and a lack of focus messed Peter up. And it has messed me up before, as well. When I met my husband, I loved him so much. I was nervous because I'd never met a complete gentleman like him. I knew God was calling us to be together and to be married, a new season indeed, right? But instead of focusing on the promise of the Lord, I focused on the naysayers. The people who didn't agree with us being together or getting married. I focused on it so much that I was severely depressed,  angry and brokenhearted. Those emotions were like weights in my marriage. I sunk deep into fear and sadness and naturally, it hurt my budding marriage  with my man. That lesson taught me that I can never focus on what's going on around me so much that I lose sight of Who is in front of me. When the Lord says to you , "come," drown out the noise and focus on Jesus and where He is taking you.

Before the last 2 points, I wanted to share what Jesus' response to Peter was:

And immediately Jesus stretched out His hand and caught him, and said to him, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?” And when they got into the boat, the wind ceased. Then those who were in the boat came and worshiped Him, saying, “Truly You are the Son of God.
— Matthew 14:31-33 NKJV

3. Expect to be rescued and corrected in love. God immediately caught Peter. I love the 'God rescuing me' part, but not the 'corrected in love' part. After Jesus rescued Peter, he told him why he sank. It was his lack of faith and doubting that did it. What a loving Father God is, He wants us to learn from the mistakes we make. But anyone else want to be rescued sometimes and then just left alone? The laziness in me likes that idea, but the Spirit of God in me won't allow me to remain that way because God desires to see me grow and mature. So while we are learning and becoming, we are going to bump our heads and face plant on the floor, sometimes. As we mature in faith, the Lord may not so quickly take us out of hard things, but God will be right there to help us and guide us on how to do it better the next time. 

4. Our obedience and potential drowning gives glory to God. I love this whole thing. Peter obeyed God and walked out on water, a new and dangerous endeavor. However, he got scared because of what was happening around him as He walked in obedience on his new endeavor. As a result, He started to sink. He cried out to Jesus to save him, which the Lord immediately did, but not without lovingly correcting him. Now, while all of this is happening, 11 pairs of eyes are watching the whole thing unfold. Can you imagine what the other disciples were feeling as they watched this astonishing thing? We don't hear a thing about them until Jesus and Peter got back into the boat. But then, we read they began worshipping Jesus realizing that He is truly the Son of God! I love this with all my heart. God used Peter to bring glory to His name. And He will use us. As we strive to obey God, we are going to mess some things up at times. We won't be completely perfect, however, God will use us, his daughters to bring glory to His name. 

I'm still learning these 4 things myself, but I want to encourage you in this: step out into the unknown.

Forgive the naysayers, forget the lies spoken and be the loving wife to that husband God has given you. I am still in the process of God helping me get rid of unforgiveness and negative thoughts, but the Lord is faithfully seeing me through, and He will see you through, as well. Declare peace over yourself, young mother, ask God to surround you with other godly mothers to help you along this new path of being a mommy. Remember who you are in Christ as you embark on a new career, you were hired to do something you are more than qualified to do. Graduate, you completed a huge thing, graduating isn't the end, it's only the beginning. Trust God in the unfamiliar places as you move forward and grow. If you've been praying for godly friends, trust that Jesus will bring it to pass. Love those sisters and trust that God will heal your past hurts. Don't allow your yesterday to ruin the beautiful future God is trying to bless you with.

I pray this blessed you to read, because it blessed me in many ways to write. God is faithful to His daughters. And He always will be.